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Monday, December 14, 2009
What season are you experiencing?
Are you able to accept that this "is" now?
That kel, always making me think.
It's been a long, dark, cold winter. Everything has been asleep while cold has been howling and killing.
But I've survived, asleep somewhere, and now maybe there's a break in the clouds. I feel like my old self sometimes, a little wiser and more careful, seeking the sun. But then, life strikes again--this week I will attend the burial of my 16 yr old nephew, killed accidentally, senselessly, tragically.
I had a hold on life, confident of my place, my space, my calling--it feels like I got hit by a truck while I was singing to my favorite song, hit first with the suicide of my friend and and then...well, everything else. What my sister must be going through is unimaginable.
It's not my thing to reach out, ask for help. Obviously, I disappear if I don't have an encouraging word, a wise observation to share. I'm not one of those weak, needy people that need a lot of hand-holding.
Oh, who am I kidding--I really need everybody to hold my hand right now. It won't make the winter go away, but I will feel a little warmer.